Birthday Boys

By the time I finish writing this post, it'll be midnight. 3rd July. Your birthday. I cannot believe a whole year has gone by already. This date last year, I was sitting on a gym ball, jumping up and down while listening to Rihana on my portable dvd player, hoping that all the jigging up and down would kickstart the labour. You - my boys - came crash, bang , wollop into my life a few hours later (6.03pm and 6.07pm), bringing me the type of happiness, exhaustion, love & pain that I never imagined was possible. You, my sons, have enriched my life in ways I can never explain, no matter how hard I try.

I once told my mum not long after Kaya was born, that it would be unfair to have anymore kids, because I loved Kaya so much that there could not possibly be more room left in my heart to love another child as I do him. I am so happy to say that I was very wrong. Yes my heart was too small to hold such a powerful love for three such beautiful boys like you - so it grew threehold to accomodate that love. It is now fit to burst and I am just so so so proud of all three of you and so happy that you have chosen me to be your mummy.

You have grown so much in the last year. You were both so tiny, so fragile looking, that I was too afraid to hold you. Now you are such big strapping boys. So full f energy, mischief and character. I look into those beautiful big brown eyes and cannot believe that I have twins! I have twins. Two, not one, TWO beautiful baby boys. As I sit here writing this, I can feel the tears at the tip of my eyelashes ready to fall. One year olds already. Where has the time flown??

I know that in a few years to come (in a blink of an eye), I will be sitting here in front of a PC, writing you your 16th birthday message, crying and gushing and smiling because my beautiful boys are now young men, making me proud of them every day. And I know you will my babies. My angels. Happy birthday Kaan. Happy Birthday Kerem. I love you so so much and I always will, no matter how many tantrums, or teenage strops that will be coming my way. May you have a birthday that is as wonderful, as special as you boys are! xxxx